Stupid Quote of the Day

"I have something wedged in my tooth." -Sara
"Is it a squirrel?" -Kendrick

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I have so much on my mind, but nothing to say.

New Look

Well. Good bye Complex Delirium. I'm changing your format again.

Art Programs

The department of the illustration chair from UVU came to talk to our AP art class today, and I must say, I am very impressed. I've thought about going to UVU a lot lately, and now it seems even more promising.

IN order for me to strengthen my art skills this year, I'm going to make it my goal to fill at LEAST 2 sketchbooks. If I start right now, there is no way I won't be able to do it. If I have small concentrations, then I can focus in on my skills overall. I need to stop giving myself excuses. I need to work on my sense of form. And sketching is going to be the best way for me to do that.

L.D. 50

I finally bought that Mudvayne album, and I must say, it's probably the best album they have ever produced. I love the raw power.

Untitled

I'm depressed today. My kidney hurts, and I don't want to do anything. My art teacher, beautiful wonderful fabulous amazing Ms. Davis is leaving Orem. Too much on my plate at once. It may not even seem like that big of a deal. But it killed me. A lot.

I'm Sick. Again.

I've seriously been sick nonstop for almost 2 and half months. What gives? Can't I just be healthy? Grrrr....

I'm a. Girl?

Seriously, for like the last 2 weeks I haven't worn any make up at all, and have only worn baggy t shirts. Not that it's a bad thing, but I feel so ugly and fat. So tomorrow, I'm going to wake up, and style my hair, and put on make up, and actually wear contacts. (:

Beauty In a Neck Brace

I was so worried about Zac. And now I know he'll be okay. He's freaking lucky to be alive. But the point is, he's alive. I drove up with my mom to go see him yesterday, and honestly, I'm so happy that I did. I brought him a cupcake from The Chocolate, and a cute little teddy bear. I went into his room, and immediately Zac said, "Alex! Thank you for coming to visit me." I gave him the bear (which he loved. He had it on his tummy the majority of the time(: ) and we sat and talked for almost an hour. I held his hand, and he was on so many pain meds that he was spontaneously falling asleep, and would wake up almost immediately. We had the same conversation twice, which was fun, and kinda funny (am I a bad person for saying that?) He was slurring pretty bad. He's having a hard time moving left arm and hand, but he's made good progress, from what his mom has said. We planned what we were going to do when he got up and running once he was back from the hospital. The Chocolate is a must. He hasn't been there...watch me get him addicted to it. Muahaha. He was in so much pain. I could tell. He handled it well, seems like he has a high pain threshold, but I could tell he was in a lot of pain. He is such a beautiful person. Seriously. I came to visit HIM in the hospital, and he wanted to talk about what I was up to. Such a sweetheart. I had to go after a bit, so I kissed him on the head, and said good bye. I'll be visiting him at least once week until he gets back from the hospital. Looooove that kid. So much. I'd had a knot in my stomach all Sunday and Monday, and now that I know that he's okay, and he'll be totally okay. It's gone. I finally unclenched my tummy. I'm so happy he's alright. I was so worried.

Zac. Get better soon. Good luck in Physical Therapy today. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

Love you buddy!!!!

Just for you

I was looking for something on my blog today, only to realize it was gone, because I had edited most of my writing so you could read it. That's so not okay. Why did I have to hide parts of myself from you? How does that make any sense? Oh that's right. It doesn't. I remember now. I was so frustrated, because I needed to know. But now I never will. Because I deleted part of who I was, for you.

Pull Through Babe.

Yesterday, I was working on my Project Me (Which I'll be posting soon) and I checked my facebook. I soon realized I was very out of the loop.

Zac.

Sweet, caring, cute, funny, amazing Zac was in the hospital in surgery after breaking his neck in a powertumbling accident.

I'm not sure exact details, but I do know he's going to be okay.

I guess he jumped into the pit funny, and another kid jumped in, and it broke his neck. He couldn't feel his left arm or leg, so they took him up to the hospital.

It's insane. Zac and I reconnected this last week. We started talking again, and we were planning on hanging out.

It happened so fast. I don't know what to think.

He'll be totally fine. He's still totally kick ass.

I think I'm going up to the hospital tomorrow. Yup.

Pray for him.

I love you Zac!!!