Thus far...Hahahaha. I hope I go further with my education and get a better degree at some point in my life...
1. Getting my CNA. This was the first step in believing that I could accomplish great things in school. I loved my program, and the people in my program. I learned so much from them. And getting a job as a CNA taught me even more. I've learned far more about empathy and compassion than I thought was actually possible. I've learned a lot about patience and balancing job duties as well.
2. Staying true to who Alex is. This is constantly a work in progress. Staying true to oneself is really hard sometimes. But I feel like in the last 6 months, I've really accepted more of who I am, and less of what I think is wrong with me, and giving myself excuses. I have done some really wonderful things in this last year, and I am just feeling happier and happier.
3. Developing closer relationships with the people I love. I've always been close to my family, but I've really worked on being a friend. It's one thing to be a sister or a daughter. It's another things to be a sister and a best friend. I know this is the closest I've ever felt to Sara. And it means so much to me. We call each other regularly, and she always makes me feel happier. And she's feeling happier. And we're both finally just happy. And I love talking with PJ. Especially when I see how excited he is to marry his sweetheart, I love hearing him talk about his life, and his passions. And Sophie. Darling Sophie. And boys that are falling in love with her. And her goofy laugh. And darling smile. And perfect soul. And my parents. My momma. And our budding best friendship. And my daddy. And our budding friendship. And trusting my husband's family enough to finally be myself around them, and get to know them on a real level, and not feel embarrassed.
4. Staying strong and knowing there's something better, even when it sucks. Everyone has hard things going on in their lives all the time. I'm no exception. I'm a sensitive person. Sometimes too sensitive. When I was younger, I let the world eat me alive. I was all raw emotion, and crying all the time. I've learned how to get a grip, and enjoy the ride. Sometimes life kicks my ass. But then I get back up, smile at it, and say "Guess what life? I'm happy. And you can't take that away from me."
5. Marrying David Shuey. Marriage is hard work. And easy work. It's hard when money is tighter than you want it to be, dishes have sat in the sink for a week, or your spouse is sick, and you can't do anything about it. But marriage is easy when you're snuggling as you fall asleep at night, when you laugh for hours about old memories, and when you can take a second to reflect on how lucky you are to have met and fallen in love with your spouse. Marrying Dave has been one of the best decisions of my entire life. He makes my heart so happy. And he takes such good care of me. He loves me for 100% of who I am. Even the cluttery, I-hate-cleaning-so-much bits. I know someday he will be a good daddy, and in the meantime, he will be a great travel partner. I've been married to him for 2 months now. They've flown by, but I'm so happy.
6. I'm so happy. I don't know if I've ever been so happy in my entire life. My life is mine, and I finally have the courage to say that. Part of me is fearful of being so happy. But I know that this is true happiness. The kind that you can cling to when things are tough. But I'm going to enjoy the ride while things are smooth, and going great.
Have a happy sunday!!!
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28.2.13
Day 9: The 10 People That Have Influenced You the Most
1. My husband.
I know I'm only 18, and I know some of the thoughts I had on love and marriage were and are because I am a young teenager. BUT... I was convinced I would never find the love of my life, and that I would settle with anyone that might love me. Dave really changed all of that for me. He was my best friend. He took everything about me with such stride and loved all of it. In that same regard, I love him. I love Dave so much. I love him for everything he is, even the bits that frustrate me a little. There is nothing he could ever do to make me not love him, and I don't think I could ever make him not love me either. I know, I'm a newlywed, so this probably has the meaning of a grain of salt. But for me, that will always be enough.
2. Suzanna.
I met this special girl when we were 4. We have been inseparable since then. We don't live in the same state anymore. In fact, she lives across the country from me, in North Carolina, but we talk everyday, and I think we've been closer since she's been away. She's always been there for me. And I'll always be there for her.
3. My mother.
My mommy and I are best friends. Aside of the fact that she let me be a parasitical organism for 9 months, and went through painful labor to get me here, she's always been my hero. We were close even when I was a baby. She cuddled me, and made me feel so safe, and she's always done that. Maybe not in a physical sense, but she's always listened to me, advised me, and comforted me whenever I needed. She gives the best hugs, and makes me laugh until I can't breathe. And even then I'm still laughing. She's cool and hip, and wears cool pajama pants. She's an awesome lady, and I'm damn lucky to call her my mom.
4. My father.
My daddy and I go way back. Hahahaha. He used to work at home building mantels, so while my mom was staying late at school, I hung out with my dad. I used to make little mini mantels out of the wood scraps that he had from all of his real mantels. And he would give me 10$ when I decided to sweep all the sawdust out of the garage. When you're 8, 10$ is a lot of money. More than that, he's never missed a dance recitial, gymnastic competition, talent show, piano festival, orchestra concert, or play in my entire life. It was always so important for my dad to go to those things, and looking back, it means so much to me that he made it such a priority. He's always picked me up when I've fallen down, hugged me, and made sure I was alright. My daddy is wise, and has a great laugh. I love my dad so much.
5. My brother PJ.
We used to kill each other. Hahahaha. We seriously would beat each other up as kids. He was always bigger, and tickled me until I screamed and cried. But I think he preferred me over the other sisters (shhhh) because I was a bit more of a tomboy. He's helped me through a lot of problems in my life. I remember in ninth grade, I was really lost, and he really helped me through that. He would talk to me as he did his homework, but he always listened. And that meant so much to me. He's smart, and is about to go to law school. And now he's marrying the love of his life. And I couldn't be happier for him. I'll always be close to my brother. And I hope he always feels close to me.
6. My big sister Sara.
Holy cow. If you guys only understood how amazing this girl was. Even if you sort of understood. Sara is the kind of person that walks into a room, and instantly the mood changes. She carries such a grace (that's even her middle name) and beauty about her. But she's so silly and goofy. She laughs at everything. And we laugh so hard together. Sara has been one of my biggest supporters in all areas of my life. We didn't always get along, but we have both worked on our relationship a lot. Especially since I've been married. She has given me some really good advice. She is always up for a phone call, or a coffee date. She's been such an example of success. She decided she wanted to go into law, rocked the LSAT, and has been accepted into several law schools all over. She's passionate about life, and she is one of the most beautiful people I know. I love Sara. And I hope that we'll be close forever.
7. My baby sister Sophie.
Sophie has been my best friend for my entire life. I was a bit of an introvert my whole life. Don't get me wrong, I'm confident, but I've never had many friends. But I've always had Sophie. I know she's my sister, but she always played the games I wanted to play, and listened to me when I thought no one was listening. When I got my license, she was my copilot whenever I went anywhere. She has the best laugh out of anyone I've ever met. It's not light and musical and phony. It's real, and makes the whole atmosphere change. I haven't been very nice to her recently. And I'm not really sure why. I think it's because I know I can take my frustrations out on her, and she'll still love me. But that's not fair. I'm sorry Sophie. Forgive me? That's one of the greatest things about Sophie. Is her ability to forgive. Her heart is the size of the world. But she's generally so happy. My little sister is amazing. I love her forever.
8. My mother-in-law Cindy.
I always hoped I would be close to my mother-in-law, and I'm really lucky. Cindy is one of my closest friends. She always willing to help Dave and I in any way that she can, and is one of the most generous people I have ever known. Her love for her family amazes me. And I feel that love, as her daughter-in-law. Every Sunday, we have Sunday dinner. She always makes a delicious meal, and helps everyone forget the stress or frustrations they've felt in that week. Cindy is truly an amazing person. I've always felt close with her, and I think I always will. We laugh together, and I feel perfectly comfortable coming over just to talk to her. She is an AMAZING grandma. Holy cow. Olivia and Kade are so lucky. She is always willing to babysit them, and they have so much fun with her. I love her enthusiasm, and her passion for her family. I love her, and I'm so happy to be part of her family.
9. A Special Resident
(Due to HIPAA violations I can not disclose her name). This special resident will always have a place in my heart. Whenever I wake her up, she is happy and radiant. She has a love for everyone at Trinity Mission. Everyone. She has a happy laugh, and makes everyone around her feel better about themselves. She has taught me more about finding happiness wherever you seek it, than I could have ever imagined. She could very easily be discouraged. Especially living in a resting home. But she takes it in such stride, and makes sure everyone feels happy around her. I love her, and only wish happy things for her in her whole life.
10. Mr. Clinton.
He was my 10th grade high school health teacher. He was my high school principal. He was one of my oclosest friends and biggest supporters. He has a passion for teaching that not many teacher possess. He is loud and doesn't always say things right, but he is wise. There were many times when we would have talks for hours after school. And he listened to me. And gave me some of the best advice I could ever ask for. I was feeling unhappy in high school. And he told me his expectation for my graduation. He wanted to give me a hug when I graduated. So I had to graduate, and couldn't get too overwhelmed with my life. And he did give me a hug when I graduated. And told me he was so proud of me. I had my parents support all through high school, but it meant so much to me to have a teacher, and a principal believe in me all through high school. Mr. Clinton, thank you. Thank you so much.
I know I'm only 18, and I know some of the thoughts I had on love and marriage were and are because I am a young teenager. BUT... I was convinced I would never find the love of my life, and that I would settle with anyone that might love me. Dave really changed all of that for me. He was my best friend. He took everything about me with such stride and loved all of it. In that same regard, I love him. I love Dave so much. I love him for everything he is, even the bits that frustrate me a little. There is nothing he could ever do to make me not love him, and I don't think I could ever make him not love me either. I know, I'm a newlywed, so this probably has the meaning of a grain of salt. But for me, that will always be enough.
2. Suzanna.
I met this special girl when we were 4. We have been inseparable since then. We don't live in the same state anymore. In fact, she lives across the country from me, in North Carolina, but we talk everyday, and I think we've been closer since she's been away. She's always been there for me. And I'll always be there for her.
3. My mother.
My mommy and I are best friends. Aside of the fact that she let me be a parasitical organism for 9 months, and went through painful labor to get me here, she's always been my hero. We were close even when I was a baby. She cuddled me, and made me feel so safe, and she's always done that. Maybe not in a physical sense, but she's always listened to me, advised me, and comforted me whenever I needed. She gives the best hugs, and makes me laugh until I can't breathe. And even then I'm still laughing. She's cool and hip, and wears cool pajama pants. She's an awesome lady, and I'm damn lucky to call her my mom.
4. My father.
My daddy and I go way back. Hahahaha. He used to work at home building mantels, so while my mom was staying late at school, I hung out with my dad. I used to make little mini mantels out of the wood scraps that he had from all of his real mantels. And he would give me 10$ when I decided to sweep all the sawdust out of the garage. When you're 8, 10$ is a lot of money. More than that, he's never missed a dance recitial, gymnastic competition, talent show, piano festival, orchestra concert, or play in my entire life. It was always so important for my dad to go to those things, and looking back, it means so much to me that he made it such a priority. He's always picked me up when I've fallen down, hugged me, and made sure I was alright. My daddy is wise, and has a great laugh. I love my dad so much.
5. My brother PJ.
We used to kill each other. Hahahaha. We seriously would beat each other up as kids. He was always bigger, and tickled me until I screamed and cried. But I think he preferred me over the other sisters (shhhh) because I was a bit more of a tomboy. He's helped me through a lot of problems in my life. I remember in ninth grade, I was really lost, and he really helped me through that. He would talk to me as he did his homework, but he always listened. And that meant so much to me. He's smart, and is about to go to law school. And now he's marrying the love of his life. And I couldn't be happier for him. I'll always be close to my brother. And I hope he always feels close to me.
6. My big sister Sara.
Holy cow. If you guys only understood how amazing this girl was. Even if you sort of understood. Sara is the kind of person that walks into a room, and instantly the mood changes. She carries such a grace (that's even her middle name) and beauty about her. But she's so silly and goofy. She laughs at everything. And we laugh so hard together. Sara has been one of my biggest supporters in all areas of my life. We didn't always get along, but we have both worked on our relationship a lot. Especially since I've been married. She has given me some really good advice. She is always up for a phone call, or a coffee date. She's been such an example of success. She decided she wanted to go into law, rocked the LSAT, and has been accepted into several law schools all over. She's passionate about life, and she is one of the most beautiful people I know. I love Sara. And I hope that we'll be close forever.
7. My baby sister Sophie.
Sophie has been my best friend for my entire life. I was a bit of an introvert my whole life. Don't get me wrong, I'm confident, but I've never had many friends. But I've always had Sophie. I know she's my sister, but she always played the games I wanted to play, and listened to me when I thought no one was listening. When I got my license, she was my copilot whenever I went anywhere. She has the best laugh out of anyone I've ever met. It's not light and musical and phony. It's real, and makes the whole atmosphere change. I haven't been very nice to her recently. And I'm not really sure why. I think it's because I know I can take my frustrations out on her, and she'll still love me. But that's not fair. I'm sorry Sophie. Forgive me? That's one of the greatest things about Sophie. Is her ability to forgive. Her heart is the size of the world. But she's generally so happy. My little sister is amazing. I love her forever.
8. My mother-in-law Cindy.
I always hoped I would be close to my mother-in-law, and I'm really lucky. Cindy is one of my closest friends. She always willing to help Dave and I in any way that she can, and is one of the most generous people I have ever known. Her love for her family amazes me. And I feel that love, as her daughter-in-law. Every Sunday, we have Sunday dinner. She always makes a delicious meal, and helps everyone forget the stress or frustrations they've felt in that week. Cindy is truly an amazing person. I've always felt close with her, and I think I always will. We laugh together, and I feel perfectly comfortable coming over just to talk to her. She is an AMAZING grandma. Holy cow. Olivia and Kade are so lucky. She is always willing to babysit them, and they have so much fun with her. I love her enthusiasm, and her passion for her family. I love her, and I'm so happy to be part of her family.
9. A Special Resident
(Due to HIPAA violations I can not disclose her name). This special resident will always have a place in my heart. Whenever I wake her up, she is happy and radiant. She has a love for everyone at Trinity Mission. Everyone. She has a happy laugh, and makes everyone around her feel better about themselves. She has taught me more about finding happiness wherever you seek it, than I could have ever imagined. She could very easily be discouraged. Especially living in a resting home. But she takes it in such stride, and makes sure everyone feels happy around her. I love her, and only wish happy things for her in her whole life.
10. Mr. Clinton.
He was my 10th grade high school health teacher. He was my high school principal. He was one of my oclosest friends and biggest supporters. He has a passion for teaching that not many teacher possess. He is loud and doesn't always say things right, but he is wise. There were many times when we would have talks for hours after school. And he listened to me. And gave me some of the best advice I could ever ask for. I was feeling unhappy in high school. And he told me his expectation for my graduation. He wanted to give me a hug when I graduated. So I had to graduate, and couldn't get too overwhelmed with my life. And he did give me a hug when I graduated. And told me he was so proud of me. I had my parents support all through high school, but it meant so much to me to have a teacher, and a principal believe in me all through high school. Mr. Clinton, thank you. Thank you so much.
6.8.12
Thunder.
I have a confession....
Sometimes thunder still scares me.
And I want to hide under my blankets.
And squeeze my eyes tight together.
Snuggle with my sister.
My boyfriend.
Someone.
Until all the thunder.
Rolls away.
Sometimes thunder still scares me.
And I want to hide under my blankets.
And squeeze my eyes tight together.
Snuggle with my sister.
My boyfriend.
Someone.
Until all the thunder.
Rolls away.
27.7.12
Blog Challenge: Day 17
A picture of me and my familia.
My whole almost-family!
This is not my most flattering picture...
this is right after PJ and Toots got engaged. We were all so thrilled for them. They've been together for the last four years, and I am so happy to have her be part of our family. Montana was magic this year...except that my boyfriend was super sick at home :(
12.6.12
Hello Sara Grayce!
I understand that you have been ill in the DR, which sorta sucks. Especially since your cuddle buddy is across the sea. So I made it my mission to take lots of videos and pictures of Jackstopher Columbus. AKA Noble Steed. AKA Jacky.e
I'll be honest with you. He's a derp. Also. He sleeps at the end of my bed, and hogs my blankets. (Derpy: To be awkward and awesome at the same time. Also a little dopey.) Also, he's a bully to Mollie. He's a little creep bully dog.
He likes to think that the fort is his own. What he doesn't know is that if Shady were alive, he wouldn't be allowed up to the Cool Club House. Also. He sorta isn't that good at fetch.....
But we still love him!!! And his obnoxious behavior..
Stories from this week:
He frolicked through mom's new flower gardens. And when he was told to get out of it, he started bounding and skipped, similar to a gazelle, across the yard.
Dave and I were on our way out. He follows tus out to the front yard, and seriously LEAPS off the rocks. Dave and I were laughing so hard we couldn't breath. His perfect turn out is good for something....he's secretly a ballerino.....
Dad has very soft eyes when it comes to Jack. It's funny. Because he'll get angry because Jacky is such a spring loaded little freak, and he jumps up in Dad's face. So Dad will push him down, tap his bum, and say NO. Then in such a sweet nice voice say "Come on Jack. Let's go back!" If Dad's this gooey with a grandpuppy, what will he be like with a grandbaby? Let's not think about that. It makes me a little nauseated.
Jack waits for Dad every single day up in the fort. He then yelps and has a serious Romeo and Juliet moment when they meet again.
Mom trained Jack to sit in a chair. She was home alone, and lonely. And needed someone to talk to. Can't you just imagine jack in some large spectacles with a clip board asking "How do you feel about that?"
He still goes down the slide.
He learned how to chew a raw hide. It was adorable. He watched Mollie with wide eyes, and figured it out.
He knocked me over today. I was sitting taking a video of him. And BOOM! I was pummeled.
Video and Picture Time:
I understand that you have been ill in the DR, which sorta sucks. Especially since your cuddle buddy is across the sea. So I made it my mission to take lots of videos and pictures of Jackstopher Columbus. AKA Noble Steed. AKA Jacky.e
I'll be honest with you. He's a derp. Also. He sleeps at the end of my bed, and hogs my blankets. (Derpy: To be awkward and awesome at the same time. Also a little dopey.) Also, he's a bully to Mollie. He's a little creep bully dog.
He likes to think that the fort is his own. What he doesn't know is that if Shady were alive, he wouldn't be allowed up to the Cool Club House. Also. He sorta isn't that good at fetch.....
But we still love him!!! And his obnoxious behavior..
Stories from this week:
He frolicked through mom's new flower gardens. And when he was told to get out of it, he started bounding and skipped, similar to a gazelle, across the yard.
Dave and I were on our way out. He follows tus out to the front yard, and seriously LEAPS off the rocks. Dave and I were laughing so hard we couldn't breath. His perfect turn out is good for something....he's secretly a ballerino.....
Dad has very soft eyes when it comes to Jack. It's funny. Because he'll get angry because Jacky is such a spring loaded little freak, and he jumps up in Dad's face. So Dad will push him down, tap his bum, and say NO. Then in such a sweet nice voice say "Come on Jack. Let's go back!" If Dad's this gooey with a grandpuppy, what will he be like with a grandbaby? Let's not think about that. It makes me a little nauseated.
Jack waits for Dad every single day up in the fort. He then yelps and has a serious Romeo and Juliet moment when they meet again.
Mom trained Jack to sit in a chair. She was home alone, and lonely. And needed someone to talk to. Can't you just imagine jack in some large spectacles with a clip board asking "How do you feel about that?"
He still goes down the slide.
He learned how to chew a raw hide. It was adorable. He watched Mollie with wide eyes, and figured it out.
He knocked me over today. I was sitting taking a video of him. And BOOM! I was pummeled.
Video and Picture Time:
Jack was eating out of the dog food bin. Hahahaha.
NOBLE STEED: I miss Sara.
Unfortunately, until I edit the videos I can't post them. Because then they's be sideways.
I love you Sara!!!
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