Tangent

Dreams scare me sometimes. Lately, no matter how hard I try, I feel like I constantly have nightmares. To some, this may be silly. "Just tell yourself you don't have nightmares anymore Alex." It's not that simple.

I fall asleep every night with a lovely day dream about what my future life is going to be like. Maybe I'll be falling asleep in the arms of the man I love.

Or maybe I be sleeping next to my baby.

Maybe I'll be crawling into bed after a long day of being a writer, musician, artist, nurse, whatever I decide to be.

Point being. It's my life, which ultimately is a dictatorship, so therefore, I honestly attempt to have wonderful dreams every night.

Last nights nightmare was a rough one. One of those dreams where I wake up glistening with cold sweat, and shaking. I'm exhausted but can't fall back asleep because I'm afraid of what will happen if I slip back into a REM cycle and dream terrible things again. I didn't want to call Dave because he had been up at 4:30ish the previous morning, (and even though I know he would want me to call and rudely wake him up to a crying shaky girlfriend. Even though I knew he would talk me through my fear until I fell back asleep) I decided that he should sleep for a full night, and I'd tell him about it later
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I've been sitting in class for the last 3 hours, and I feel like I'm going to die. I already ate my bagel (Which by the way was pathetically smeared with cream cheese. It made me want Einstein Bagels (Frankenstein.....Sophie :]) Hahahaha. Seriously. Is there a special cream cheese spreading technique that you only learn if you work at Einsteins? I can't figure it out....TANGENT. Anyway, so yeah. It's safe to assume my attention span is currently shot to hell.

I keep Googling random things. They have basically no pattern. It has seriously been just like this.

GOOGLE: Elephant.
Elephant Boner?? What the hell.
GOOGLE: Bubbles.
Oh shit. Not what I was looking for. (Never look up bubbles in Google. There will be horrible images. Trust me.)
GOOGLE: Water
That's a pretty waterfall. Damn. Now I'm thirsty.
GOOGLE: Florence Welch.
She is so pretty. I'm going to dye my hair her color.
GOOGLE: Animal abuse.
What the hell? This is depressing. Why am I looking at chemically abused animals?
GOOGLE: WTF has Obama Done?
I learned something. Great. I want a Chai Tea Frap.
GOOGLE: Starbucks.
Shouldn't have done that. I'm sad. I want coffee.
GOOGLE: Does he love me?
Nope. Great.

This has clearly been a productive period of time. And now I really want to go to Roll-up Crepes. They are Foodgasmic. Seriously. So good. Like take a Smore for instance. You wouldn't think that a Smore would be good in a Crepe. WRONG SIR. It is now the only way to eat a crepe.

TANGENT.

February (Which is spelled completely stupid, by the way. What's with the unnecessary "r"? I live in Utah. No one I know says Feb-ru-ary. It's all Feb-you-ary. TANGENT) feels like a long freaking time away. My CNA training doesn't begin until Feb. 13, so what am I supposed to do for basically another 3 weeks? Be bored. That is the answer.

I need Adderall. I'm way to ADHD to accomplish anything today.


I want a parakeet.

GOOGLE: Baby Whale