Thoughts.

It's been ages since I've posted anything.
I haven't felt up to it, truthfully. There's something about being vulnerable that isn't attractive to me like it used to be. But it still is at the same time. It feels complicated.

I have been looking to journal, recently. Avoid the vulnerability all together. But there's something about being connected, and feeling like maybe, I'm helping someone out there that still makes me want to keep this stupid thing. But this blog is plagued with negativity. Some thought provoking stuff, but mostly depressed teenage rantings, and the like. I've thought about starting a new blog. Starting fresh. And I'm still considering it. Because part of me still needs me little corner of the internet. But I would want to start brand new. Probably just for my art, poetry, and the like.

I've been good lately. Nothing scary or irrational. I've had lots of good days. I even started a new job. But, I just miss having friends. I love my family and husband. But I want to find somebody that will sit and drink tea with me, and talk about our tiny placement in the universe. I really miss my best friend Suz. But she's on the other side of the world from me.

So I'm taking applications for a best friend.

I just need someone who:

Likes deep conversations.
Is a coffee/tea enthusiast.
Can laugh until it hurts.
Is cool with me being married.
Doesn't mind if I swear a bit too much.
Loves God, but isn't preachy.