100 Posts about My life...

So this is my 1ooth post, which for me is quite the accomplishment. I often stop doing something right as I start to get good at it (piano, violin, journal writing, reading, art....) And so I've found my blog as a good outlet. So today I'm going to do something very different. I'm going to talk about what's wonderful about my life, and why I'm so happy I got to wake up this morning!!! (:

1. My mommy. Even though she had a hard day, and she was tired, and had meetings, she let me take the car to go do Kayley's make up, even though she didn't really want me to. She genuinely loves me, even when I'm the biggest moron/loser/stupid/rude/grumpy person in the entire world. She kisses me good night every night of my life...even though I'm 16. Call me lame, but it's still one of my favorite things when she comes into my room, and "tucks me in" for bed. She's forgiving when I do wrong, helpful when I'm sad (and basically every other time...including my concentration ideas for art), she's resourceful, she's so funny, so so so so so so funny actually, and what matters the most to me. She loves me no matter what I do, or how I act, or how I'm feeling. She wants the best for me, and she makes me feel loved every day of my life. I love you mom!!

2. Daddy. I don't really know how to describe the love my daddy has for me. He seriously is the MOST giving person in the entire world. I don't know any dad in their sane mind that would work from 6 in the morning until 9 at night, so that his family can live happily and comfortably, and never complain about it, except for admitting that he comes home tired, and hungry. My dad is the best morning person in the entire world. He survives on a glass of OJ every morning, and whenever I go shopping, I buy him his special juice. AKA florida's natural. He's so willing to take me wherever I need to go, stay up with me to work on my homework (even when he feels he's going to pass out from exhaustion), listen to my blabbish stories that if I were him, would seem like they take for FREAKING ever. And he's been taking me to school recently. I like having 5 minutes with daddy. It's fun. I love you dad. Thanks for all you do.

3. My sisters. Sophie. I don't know why she puts up with me. I'm the moody mean older sister, but now that we're so close to the same age, she's becoming so fun to HANG OUT with. I drive everywhere with her. Because she's so funny. And she keeps me happy. Sophie is like my little antidepressant. She makes me smile at least 40 times a day, and even though sometimes I know she's in pain, or she's unhappy because people are douche bags to her in school, she still manages a good attitude, and says "HI ALEX!!!" everytime I come home. And I've loved walking with her home from school. I'll call her, and she'll walk with me home. She's my baby sis. I love her!!!
SARA!!! After she moved away, we got along better, but we still argued, because I felt like we were so different. She has a very strong alpha personality like me, and sometimes we bash heads, or I want to slip into the background, because she feels like the most incredible person in the world. But now that we're closer to the same maturity level, sorta, we get along better, and I feel like we're SISTERS!!! We have this fabulous pact, that I can say has contributed to us becoming closer. She's so helpful, and always compliments me, even when I look like POO!!!! Hahaha. She's funny, and I love seeing her happy with Kendrick!!! I love you Sara.

4. PJ. I don't know if I'll ever understand our relationship fully. He's kind of like one of my major role models. He's so smart. And loves talking to me about things that make me feel smart, because I can keep up a conversation. He makes me feel beautiful, because it doesn't matter if I'm just Alex, because that's enough. We weren't as close this summer, which sort of broke my heart, because I was so happy, and he wasn't as happy. But I felt like we couldn't talk about it, which bothered me, because even though I'm younger than him I understand sometimes life isn't all rainbows and butterflies. It's hard work, and frankly, sometimes it kicks your ass. But the turning point was when I was crying because I was so mad. I was mad at my mom because she said something that had seriously upset me. And he was home from work, and popped in to say hi, and hugged me. I think that was our first REAL hug in months. Maybe even years. He let me cry on his shoulder. And it's not supposed to be creepy, because that wasn't his intentions, or mine. He was just being a fabulous older brother. And he's always willing to remind me that he'll destroy anyone that tries to hurt me. I have the best older brother in the entire universe. I love you PJ.

5. Brother Heaston. What a special bond we have. We met thanks to dream theater, and he has been one of the best people to talk to ever. It's easy. He's my surrogate uncle, but I get along with him fabulously. He offers the best advice, and reminds me that I'm loved not only by my family and friends, but by God. Thanks Bro Heaston!!!

6. Mr. Clinton. Is. The. Coolest. Teacher. Ever. He's so nice to me, and talks to me in the halls. He drinks coffee, and is kind of crazy, but I love it. I love his insanity. He's so supportive of everything that we do. He's wise as well. He knows what to say, and when to say it. He's funny, but knows when to be serious. He's great. Mr. Clinton....you rock!!!!

7. Zach. What a funny guy. He's been really cool to talk to and hang out with. I still have a lot to learn to get to know him, but so far, he's pretty awesome. It's always fun. Well. The 2 times we have hung out...and he's been a really good friend. I hope it stays that way.

8. God. It's been a hard month. Emotional, numb. It's been kinda crappy. But when it comes down to it, God wraps His arms around me, and lifts me, giving me the will to move forward. He's carried me through some of the hard parts. And I'm sure there will be more to come. But I thank God that I know about the bible. And that I can pray whenever I want. God is my Father.

9. Molly and Shady, when I need a good laugh, or a good cry, there are not 2 better dogs you could ask for. Their high energy, but they both love a good belly rub. Molly has become a major love in my heart. She's such a sweetheart. And Shady has been mellowing out a bit. And loves to just sit and be pet. I love you doggies!!!

10. Nina and Dommy. Nina. I know I've been rude and distant lately. But I still love you. And the little things don't go unnoticed. I'm sorry if I've hurt your feelings. But it's going to get better. And Dom. Whenever I feel like I have no one, I always have someone. I have you. And that means so much to me. You were crazy cramming for your test yesterday, and you still talked to me while I walking in the dark to my truck. It meant a lot. I love you Nina. And I love you Dom.

11. Suz. Suzanna has been one of my closest friends since we were basically toddlers. She understands how I tick, and knows how to make me smile. I want life to be sweeter for her, and for her to be GENUINELY happy. I love her so much.

12. Wes. You know what you do for me dude. Whenever I feel poopy, scriptural help makes me feel better. And he knows every scripture basically ever. He's a fabulous friend, and ya. Love you!

13. Suze Goodman. My closest friend at school. When I feel like I have no one, you're always there for me. It means a lot to me that we're more than just friends that love writing and art. We have a real relationship. And it means so much to me. Suze I love you.

14. I didn't forget all my other friends, I just am too lazy to write all of you guys. You make my days bright and happy. I love each and every one of you.

Life can be sweet like a cupcake, when you look towards the happiness that life has to offer. (:

~Xela.