Thus far...Hahahaha. I hope I go further with my education and get a better degree at some point in my life...
1. Getting my CNA. This was the first step in believing that I could accomplish great things in school. I loved my program, and the people in my program. I learned so much from them. And getting a job as a CNA taught me even more. I've learned far more about empathy and compassion than I thought was actually possible. I've learned a lot about patience and balancing job duties as well.
2. Staying true to who Alex is. This is constantly a work in progress. Staying true to oneself is really hard sometimes. But I feel like in the last 6 months, I've really accepted more of who I am, and less of what I think is wrong with me, and giving myself excuses. I have done some really wonderful things in this last year, and I am just feeling happier and happier.
3. Developing closer relationships with the people I love. I've always been close to my family, but I've really worked on being a friend. It's one thing to be a sister or a daughter. It's another things to be a sister and a best friend. I know this is the closest I've ever felt to Sara. And it means so much to me. We call each other regularly, and she always makes me feel happier. And she's feeling happier. And we're both finally just happy. And I love talking with PJ. Especially when I see how excited he is to marry his sweetheart, I love hearing him talk about his life, and his passions. And Sophie. Darling Sophie. And boys that are falling in love with her. And her goofy laugh. And darling smile. And perfect soul. And my parents. My momma. And our budding best friendship. And my daddy. And our budding friendship. And trusting my husband's family enough to finally be myself around them, and get to know them on a real level, and not feel embarrassed.
4. Staying strong and knowing there's something better, even when it sucks. Everyone has hard things going on in their lives all the time. I'm no exception. I'm a sensitive person. Sometimes too sensitive. When I was younger, I let the world eat me alive. I was all raw emotion, and crying all the time. I've learned how to get a grip, and enjoy the ride. Sometimes life kicks my ass. But then I get back up, smile at it, and say "Guess what life? I'm happy. And you can't take that away from me."
5. Marrying David Shuey. Marriage is hard work. And easy work. It's hard when money is tighter than you want it to be, dishes have sat in the sink for a week, or your spouse is sick, and you can't do anything about it. But marriage is easy when you're snuggling as you fall asleep at night, when you laugh for hours about old memories, and when you can take a second to reflect on how lucky you are to have met and fallen in love with your spouse. Marrying Dave has been one of the best decisions of my entire life. He makes my heart so happy. And he takes such good care of me. He loves me for 100% of who I am. Even the cluttery, I-hate-cleaning-so-much bits. I know someday he will be a good daddy, and in the meantime, he will be a great travel partner. I've been married to him for 2 months now. They've flown by, but I'm so happy.
6. I'm so happy. I don't know if I've ever been so happy in my entire life. My life is mine, and I finally have the courage to say that. Part of me is fearful of being so happy. But I know that this is true happiness. The kind that you can cling to when things are tough. But I'm going to enjoy the ride while things are smooth, and going great.
Have a happy sunday!!!
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