A New Year...For a New Me.

I went into 2010 thinking: THANK GOD 2009 is FINALLY OVER!!!!!

Oh how I was wrong. 2010 WASN'T a bad year by any stretch of the imagination. It just taught me a lot. And introduced me to a lot of people, as I did things that surprised myself.

LESSONS FROM 2010:

1. Never say Never. Because Karma's a bitch. Right when you say, That would never happen to me....IT DOES. Hahaha.

2. A friend may not last forever, but take advantage of the time you have with them. I learned this from my closest guy friend ever Brennen. We had so much fun together, and he kind of fell into my life when I was feeling sad a lot, so it was really nice to have someone that I felt close to.

3. Love comes and goes. You're 16 for hell's sake. Hahahaha. Oh Alex. I think one of my biggest problems is my ability to convince myself that I'm in love. Because once that happens. I stay "in love." But it's okay for love to come and go. Cooper was a great person. Adam was sooo fun. And I really enjoyed myself.

4. Take it one day at a time. I'm serious. When you think about the grand scheme of things, this year passed by freaking fast. But on days where my load seemed too heavy to bear. I had to remember. Take it one day at a time. And you'll feel better.

5. Family will ALWAYS support you. The last 4 months have shown me that especially. With all the chaos, my mom has supported me. My dad has supported me. My siblings have been non stop support. And that's been what I've needed.

6. Best friends come out of mysterious places. Sari. I mean you. We just clicked. And we may move on to bigger and better things a couple of years from now, but let's just enjoy it now!!!

7. Love isn't created overnight. It takes time. Slow but steady progress. Getting over yourself to try to understand the other person.

8. Trust your gut. When you know something is wrong. SOMETHING IS WRONG.


New Years Resolutions:

1. FEEL healthy again. I'm not looking to drop 50 pounds and look skeletal. I just want to be able to run, and eat better, and feel better.
2. Trust myself. This is going to take a while. But I think if I trust in myself more and more, I'll feel happier.
3. Feel Happier. Happiness is an option. You can choose to be happy, you can choose to be unhappy. Obviously extended moods and feelings are probably due to some kind of stress or hormone issue, but try to not let my happiness make me TOO happy, or when I feel sad to feel TOO sad.
4. Long, luscious hair. Try to straighten it less. Take prenatal vitamins. Wash it, and keep it moisturized. ONLY color it with semi permanent color.
5. Fall in love.....Right. Hahahaha.