Spiral.

It's probably because I'm blogging late.



So maybe I shouldn't be writing what I'm feeling.









I don't feel worthy of the life I've been enjoying recently. I don't feel worthy of the happiness, the joy, the healthy feelings, the weight gain from enjoying good food, the friends, the love, the family. Why do I get to be in such a stable place in my life?



When is it going to slip out of my fingertips, and I'll end up spiraling out of control?





Why have I, an 18-year-old little girl, found the love of my life, and one of the few respectable men there are out there?






Why do I get to be okay?


































i'm not worthy of this love.
But I'll take the ride as long as I can cling to it.