Happy again.

My emotional storm has passed. Things are alright.

Truthfully, I think being happy is kind of scary. Because I constantly feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. But guess what? Sometimes, the other shoe doesn't fall for a long time. And that means it's okay to smile, and feel happy.


I'm happy today because:

|I'm not tired. That's a rare thing nowadays.

|Dave and I are seriously great. I married the greatest guy in the world. He makes me laugh every single day, and we snuggled extra long today.

|We bought a BRAND NEW CAR. It's a Subaru 2013 CrossTrek. It's our car (but it's mostly my car...) I absolutely love it. It drives like butter. And it has air conditioning!!!!

|I seriously have the best family in the freaking world. My older sister is always watching out for me. I had a doctor's appointment last week, and he prescribed me all sorts of things to "fix" the problem. Sara took the time to read up on the meds, and suggest natural ways to deal with it. I am now on a fiber supplement, a probiotic, and am trying really hard to eat good and healthy food. I am committed to exercising everyday. Even if it's 20 minutes. (I'm hoping rock-climbing becomes a regular addition to this.) She loves me so much. My little sister Soph and I have become besties again. I was quite the bitch to her right after I got married. And I don't really have a good reason for it. So I decided to act like her sister. Be her friend. And truthfully, it's benefitted me so much more than she could ever imagine. My daddy just had his birthday and my brother's about to have his. I am so lucky to be a sister and a daughter to such incredible men. My dad is such a gentle soul. He gives the best hugs. And PJ, oh man. PJ is just awesome. We can talk about anything. Seriously. Momma's really helped me get out of this funk lately. Sometimes I need to hear the hard truth. From someone I respect and love deeply. And she always knows how to put it, so that my feelings aren't completely raw, but I get the picture.

|I love my Shuey family!!! I am so so so so so excited for Brian and Kelsey to get married!!! I am really getting close to my sister in laws, which brings me so much happiness. We are going to be in each other's lives forever. Might as well be good friends!!! Cindy has been great lately. She helped us get our car, and has really helped me with my gardening endeavor.

|I've been feeling so successful. I worked for about a week straight. Every single night. And it was the best thing in the whole world for my self esteem. I really connect with my residents, and I really do make a difference. Even if it's just in 1 person's life. If I can make them feel more comfortable, less embarrassed, more happy, more cheerful, more anything, then I am doing something great.

|I am making some seriously beautiful jewelry. Which thrills me. I've been so busy, that I need to buy more hemp!!!!

|God loves me. And that is always enough.

|Dave loves me. And I love Dave.

|Baby hunger is going away. Which is great. Because now I can focus on the things I want to do. I expect it to come back about every 3 days or so. Hahahahaha.

|Things are okay. And I'm okay. And life, even though overwhelming, can be okay.