17.11.10
Feeling. Blue?
First documented picture.
Ninth Grade
(My favorite of us ever. We both look pretty)
Hahaha. Just another day in paradise
Walking all over orem together.
Suzie's deals...9th Grade
This past summer. Walking to harmons.
She helped me get over my shorter haircut that day.
This looks like a modeling ad, for us both. Good job Neen (:
Where did you go? We were so close. I remember the very day we had that conversation. "There basically isn't anything that would tear us apart. Because we'll always be there for each other. I freaking love you woman!" What happened to that? I realize it was the summer, and we were both far happier, and we spent basically every second we could together. But have our lives gotten so complicated that there is really never time for each other? We made plans saturday, and they fell through. I'm not blaming you, or me, because neither of us really made it that big of a priority. But seriously, what happened to "I hope your home, because I'm parked outside your house." Babe. We were close. We were best friends. You say you don't feel like you have any friends. But I'm right here. I'm in the wings, waiting for you to gesture me back onto the stage.....metaphorically speaking. I'm waiting for you to call me and be like "Dude, I don't give a shit if you have a date with that kid. We're hanging out. And that's that." We used to be like that.
Remember when?
-We walked down to the movies without our bras on, after we had spent the whole day at the mall, walked up to a random chicken man, and took pictures with him?
-We were both sad we didn't get asked to prom, so we dressed up in pretty dresses, did our hair all nice, went to smiths, bought drinks and jelly belly's and took lots of stupid cheesy pictures, while singing Adam lambert all the way home?
-You were worried about Amy forgetting you because she was getting married, and we talked about it, until you knew you would almost be okay?
-We made fun of Courtney's smile....everytime we've ever hung out?
-Making a terrible "horror movie" at the beginning of the summer, that in actuality just sucked?
-When I went to girls camp, then montana, then you went to girls camp, and we didn't really see each other in July, and we were both emotional when we saw each other again, and you gave me the best card I've ever received, and I still have it, and look at it, and wish we were back to normal?
-When we took our first summer photoshoot, you documented hoboness, we were almost attacked by demon deer, and we went to blickenstaff's?
-We spent every penny we had at the pay it yourself at smiths.....when we paid in ALL pennies?
-When I was angry at my parents, and my siblings and my life, and you talked to me about it, and made me feel all better, and we did our hair and make up, and took photobooth pictures?
-When you were grounded from your computer, and you called me upset, and we talked about it?
-When we colored with chalk, and you made a chalk bed...Did I mention I asian?
-When I called you after every break up for words of encouragement?
-When we stopped calling, texting, blogging, facebooking, and slipped silently out of each others lives?
-When we were both lonely because neither of us would admit that we missed our best friend.
-When we stopped acting like best friends?
What happened to us?
We make up, but never have really made up. There's a big crack in our friendship that we need to cover with a big band aid of love. You know what I mean?
Life is sweet like a cupcake....but it's even sweeter when your best friend puts sprinkles on the top, just because she knows you like them.
I'm sorry for not being there. It's not a very friend like thing to do. I'm sorry you've felt alone. I'm sorry you're struggling and suffering, but it's not going unnoticed.
I'm sorry I never called/texted back.
I'm sorry I was angry.
Let's fix this.
I love you Marina Sofia Carpenter.
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