Loneliness.

I used to feel perfectly fine with where I was at with friends in my life, but now I just feel sad. Like I'm never enough. Best friends forever? What happened to us? We make up, but never fully. All words, not actions. And trust me, it makes a difference. I just wish things would go back to normal. I just want to feel like I have a FRIEND. Like someone I can kind of lean on. Granted, I have lots of almost friends that I can laugh with at school, but when it comes down to it, I still have a sad loneliness in the pit of my heart, that could only be filled with a best friend. Why do things have to continually change? Why can't there be a constant? Why can't I freaking cry like a normal person?